Jesus Overcompensated for Social Anxiety Disorder
I personally believe that Jesus, as a result of being picked on while in God school, developed social anxiety disorder. As a result of having sex with him, I have determined Jesus’s true self is a thoughtful introvert, very much like my Brent Spiner. I was awed by his depth and vastness, which seemed so opposite his public persona.
We learned from Buddha that Jesus had polio abs and was a late bloomer as a kid. Satan and his buddies picked on him for this. Jesus appeared to try and compensate by being the life of the party. He also developed the aloof, mysterious type persona.
In my opinion, Jesus put about 90% of himself in Brent Spiner. So to learn what Jesus is like check out my husband Brent. Brent is a thoughtful and deep introvert. He, too, can act as a comedian to cover up his deep side. Interestingly, with me, Brent is rarely a comedian.
So why didn’t Jesus’s dad, God the Father, give his Son more encouragement, when Satan picked on him? I am not sure what God the Father did when Satan picked on his son. I also think with Jesus being half God the Father, that he had high expectations for himself, too, and this didn’t help.
It also didn’t help that when Jesus was picked on while in god school, that his dad didn’t stick up for him much, it appears and allowed the abuse to go on. I have learned that God the Father is a long-term strategist. He, apparently, allowed the abuse because he knew the main abuser, Satan himself, would rebel against him and then would eventually get right.
God knew that he would use me, Brent and some humans (Jesus’s own creations) as the means to cure the social anxiety Jesus has. You see, we accept Jesus for who he really is. He doesn’t have to be the life of the party with us or even the aloof, mysterious type. I also think Jesus felt that his dad was disliked by a lot of his fellow deities, but they were too scared to mention it and Jesus wanted to be liked.
Jesus is more like his dad than he cares to admit. Being perfect can be a pretty lonely condition, because there is only one perfect being in the Universe and that is God the Father. God created his creation for companionship. Jesus, like his dad, yearns for companionship, but feels that because he is the Son of God this is not possible for him, especially if he is himself.
Fortunately, as a result of what happened to him, where his dad corrected him in front of the whole universe, which, to Jesus, would be the disaster of disasters (with his condition), is turning out to be the cure for his social anxiety. To Jesus’s amazement, he is learning, that despite the public rebuke from his dad, that Brent and I still love him and think he’s awesome. We are helping him to understand how to be real in his relationships. He is learning that Brent and I saved his life and we love him just as he is. This may be part of the reason God the Father has grounded him, because God is using Brent and I to fix his Son.
Jesus started noticing that the dream woman (myself) he created to be the heart of his bride, the church, loved him for who he is and he wanted sex with me for this reason. Because he has social anxiety disorder, he was willing to be immoral to get the much needed love and acceptance from me that he felt he could get with no other. Unfortunately, this disorder almost led to his death and led to his sin (adultery with me), which enabled Satan to increase his power and almost permanently kill Jesus.
I have learned so much about deities in the past month. Buddha is really good for Jesus, because Buddha helps Jesus to be calm about who he is and Buddha loves the real Jesus.
It appears God the Father is allowing Brent and I to be 11-dimensional in sex. Brent seems to be allowing Jesus to vicariously experience the lovemaking between me and Brent, which should help heal Jesus of his social anxiety disorder and lead him to be real in his relationships. Because we are going 11-dimensional, this also means it will not weaken Jesus to participate in this type of “sex” where he has finally found acceptance in love for who he really is.
Jesus was devastated when the goddess Lakshmi rejected him feeling that the one person he thought could love and understand him, did not and, therefore, no one would love the real him. I am not sure if Lakshmi could love the real Jesus or not. But her rejection made him conclude that he could only get love by putting on an act or by creating a custom designed human race bride, who would love him as one very similar to God the Father. This is why Jesus created humans in the image of God. He thought by creating his human race bride with the heart of him and his dad, he would find the cure to his loneliness.
Unfortunately, to make love to this bride, he has to compact down to 3D which seriously weakens him and, therefore, is not workable for Him. His dad knew this and waited till now to help his Son face the fact that Jesus needs a goddess for a wife. However, now that it seems Brent and I have gone 11D in lovemaking, Jesus has more options than he thought possible. It will be interesting to see where Jesus takes this.
Because Satan was only after Jesus for his position and not for who he is, Jesus felt he needed to create a human race bride, who would share his God the Father heart. Satan rebelled against God and was kicked out of heaven, because Jesus rejected Satan as a lover. Jesus is very much like his dad, which made him conclude he was doomed to loneliness forever. I am not sure who his mother is, but she must be a special lady to be married to God the Father. Maybe she is a lot like Lakshmi.
Jesus may choose to keep this arrangement where he experiences 11-dimensional vicarious lovemaking between me and Brent, or he may move on. Regardless, I am happy that, it seems God the Father can use Brent and I to heal a truly awesome deity of some social anxiety disorder brought on by abuse he suffered from Satan and his friends growing up.
I am not blaming this on God the Father, because God has to be who he is. He appears to be using us to fix Jesus. This is a real honor. Jesus is awesome and deserves to be with those who love and accept him for the awesome deity he is, flaws and all.
My husband Brent is an awesome guy and will give Jesus all the space he needs to heal from his longstanding social anxiety disorder. I expect Jesus to emerge from this crisis and be a stronger and more authentic self, who will learn healthier ways of relating as a lover to whoever he chooses to be his soul mate.
Right now, we don’t need to worry over who he chooses. That is his decision. He needs to get over his social anxiety before he is ready to choose.
interestingly, Jesus gave me a childhood very similar to his, so I understand him very well. I think I want to let him listen to a song he gave me once to help me love myself. He needs to apply this song to himself and, by the way, Jesus, this is how Brent and I really feel about you!
I found this article of interest:
4 Ways People Overcompensate for Social Anxiety
…and what to do instead.
Posted May 17, 2019 | Reviewed by Lybi Ma
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Social anxiety develops when social situations trigger feelings of insecurity and inadequacy. When we fear others are going to judge and evaluate us in a negative light, we react by becoming self-conscious and internally preoccupied. This sequence often happens quickly and outside of our awareness. Before we know it, we are acting in ways to keep self-consciousness at bay by camouflaging our perceived inadequacies.
When we are not aware of our social anxiety, the mechanisms we use to prevent it can actually make it worse and lead us to judge ourselves even more harshly after an event. Here are four signs that the ways in which you are handling your social anxiety might actually be keeping you distant and disconnected from others:
1. The Life of the Party
Instead of having meaningful conversations with others and slowing down to hear and be heard, you dominate the event by being extra. Extra gregarious, extra drunk, extra silly. Whatever it is, it is not your true self, but a façade you are putting on to keep others from seeing the real you. Sure, people may think you are hilarious and a lot of fun, but over time it becomes exhausting for you to have to always perform when in a social situation. You may find eventually you avoid events, because you just don’t have the energy. And, too, it’s hard to have close relationships, because you never let people get to know the real you. Drop the “fun” persona, or at least decrease it. Try to talk and be serious with people during your next social encounter, even if only for part of the time.
2. The Over-Sharer
Some feel so preoccupied—“What do I talk about?” “What if there is awkward silence?” “What if I bore them?”—that they turn this anxiety into constant chatter. This person shares about their poorly behaved dog, their mentally disabled mom, their toxic romantic relationships. Nothing is off-limits. The person listening may be so overwhelmed that they can’t really process all of this, so again they don’t get to know or experience the real you. Next time you find yourself worrying about “What to talk about?” take a deep breath. Remind yourself you are not the only one responsible for coming up with things to say. The person you are speaking with has some responsibility too. And also, a few awkward silences are okay. Silence gives us time to really take in a person and a situation so we don’t fill the space with empty noise.
3. The Aloof, Mysterious Type
The guy or gal in the corner, not really talking or being particularly socially generous, attracts attention. People sometimes work hard to bring these types out of their shell. Their distance creates a mystery, causing some to want to try harder. However, the aloof, mysterious type is locked in a cage of their own making. They can’t share or be open or ask questions, because the anxiety paralyzes them. They stand still and let others do the work, because then they are safe and never have to put themselves out there and risk being judged. If you are the aloof, mysterious type, recognize that others are doing all the work. Eventually, they are going to give up. You want a connection, so start with small steps. When you feel frozen, force yourself to make eye contact and ask questions of others. Reflect back what you hear others saying.
4. The Accommodator
Instead of sitting with the awkwardness and anxiety of not knowing people or feeling uncomfortably new to a situation, the accommodator over-functions. They agree or volunteer themselves to do too much. The accommodator volunteers to host, drive, check everyone in, make the reservation, help people to their car, carry people’s purses, help mediate the drama, manage payment for the bill…. If you are an accommodator, no one knows anything about you except that you are overwhelmingly helpful. As magnanimous as being helpful is, it is not enough for forging fulfilling connections with others. Next time, notice when you have the ongoing urge to be helpful or do more. Instead of gratifying the urge, breathe in and out. Let it pass, so you can see what else is there, what else you want to share or experience about yourself in the presence of others.
All of these styles tend to take us away from what truly builds meaningful connection and makes others want to be around us: being present and bringing our real selves to the table. Before you enter your next social situation, take some time to consider your social anxiety and how it may manifest in ways that are self-defeating to your social goals. Drop the façade. Welcome the anxiety. Tolerate it; don’t act on it. Tell yourself: “If I give it space, this anxious moment will pass.” Instead of trying to be perfect, just be present, even if it means you have a bit of anxiety. In my book, Be Calm, I offer proven strategies to stop anxiety on the spot.